note to a - i love you, but please stop asking me stupid questions. you are driving me crazy. i’m not mad at you, but i just can’t with all the texts. i will see you later. i’m just not in the mood to deal with people right now, and i really do not want to take my frustration out on you, because that is not okay.
note to b - i’m sorry. i REALLY should not have said anything. you did not deserve that. at all.
note to self - i just want to fucking scream. i keep making the same stupid mistakes and not learning from them. i act first and think second, and that is not okay.
hell, i’m not okay. i just don’t know how to deal with all these fucking emotions in a healthy way that will not negatively impact myself or anyone else.
i just want to have a good night with my friends :/